One of the wonderful things Access Consciousness has done for me is it have given me the power of choice.
I grew up being told what to do, even as an adult, even as a mother. If I wasn't accommodating, lies and manipulations were common place to make me acquiesce. I always felt wrong when I made a choice that went against what I had been told. I was constantly resented because I had wanted to choose something different. And I was so guilty about that.
In hind sight, when I look back, it was those decisions, the ones I made against the grain, that created the most in my life. The decisions Bad Tanja made choosing for herself created more. More joy, more fun!
I always felt like I had to, this is what I have to do, this is what they expect, and I felt I had no choices.
But that isn't true! I have a million possibilities in a day! Do I want to get up on time or do I want to laze around? Do I want to wear the blue pants or the black ones? Do I want to wear a sweater or not? Do I want to fit in some exercise before work or review my email? Do I want to eat breakie or just have juice or tea? Do I want to use peppermint or charcoal tooth paste? Do I want to wear heavy makeup, light or maybe none at all? Do I want to straighten my hair or go naturally curly? Do I want to take offence at the stuff my dogs chewed or do I just want to love them? Do I want to walk to work or do I want to drive? All that was before I left the house in the morning!
Keep in mind, our choices have repercussions, but it is still our choice. If I choose not to wear my seat belt, that is my choice. However, if I am caught in a check stop without it on, I will have to pay for a ticket. But that is a choice, too. I could choose not to pay my ticket and at some point find myself in court. And maybe if I strongly feel that having to wear a seat belt goes against my human rights and I want to take a stand and I want to publicise my views... those may be the choices I make,
I no longer have to feel guilty for saying no or letting someone know something doesn't work for me. It doesn't have to change things for them, just don't expect me to comply or participate. The flip side is that the things I do choose, I do with joy and happiness. There is no resentment in my choices. I choose it because that is what is best for me. I can give all of myself joyfully in that choice.
We are often taught that there are two options. Right and wrong. Or plan A or plan B. What I want and what you want. But in reality we have a million possibilities in a day.
So what are you choosing?